Sunday, December 27, 2009

The closest I'll ever get to telling you how I feel.

You mean the world to me. Words cannot express how much I wish we could be back to where we used to be. Things are difficult sometimes. It seems like everytime I finally forget about you for a moment, you do something; upload a photo, update your status, start a conversation with me, anything. Then you're on my mind for the rest of the day. Even at 1:30 in the morning. It's sad really. Pathetic. Why cant I just get over you? I wish you would read this and know that it's about you. I suppose you could, really. All I'd have to do is say it is. But I cant do that because I'm just too damn afraid.

Friday, December 18, 2009

Hey now.

I honestly dont give a fuck anymore, at all. I'm tired of sitting around in life and watching everyone be oh so happy and carefree, surrounded by their many friends. And it isnt that watching this bothers me. No, it doesnt. Knowing that I'm never, ever going to have anything like that is what kills me inside, and I'm just waiting for the day when I completely crash and burn.

“You must realize that one day you will die. Until then you are worthless.”
No one cares until you're gone.

Thursday, December 10, 2009

One year.

January: Courteney, Alexis, photos, guitars, blue skies, Nicholette, the Disney store, Chuck E. Cheese, fortune cookies, writing.
February: Outdoors, old photos, dyed hair, ugly dollz, daddy, rain rain go away.
March: friends, Opryland, Matt's birthday, Music Man, pajamas, iPods, creativity.
April: kittens, outdoors, cloudy skies, sunburns, candles, oranges, henna tattoos, v necks, stops signs, flowers, Alexis' house, Marco, Brian, trampoline photos, adventures with Matt, dollar general, mickey mouse graffiti, jumping over the creek, the pond, so exhausted.
May: More dyed hair, Phineas and Ferb, hello pool!, freckles, green eyes, sprinkler in the garden, eating raisins, missing Brian, sad nights, sad days, comas, MORE DYED HAIR, twloha, Austin, star trek, out too late, sneaking in, rainbows, swings, sunsets.
June: mid ohio, Ryan, Michael, Chelese, abandoned house, Kayla, more pool time, macro photos, soso hyper, creepy spiders.
July: Kayla, buttons, chocolate, (pg-13), spongebob!, speed limit 13, face painting, adorable kids, funny faces, Kirk's photoshoot, so many converse, NICOLENICOLENICOLE!, Lake Ontario, jumping photos, heart hands, superman, such big waves, pretty ducks, sunset, singing, Niagara Falls, creepy birds, maid of the mist, ahhh my camera, Cedar Point, Malloree, the ferris wheel, little kid rides, scraper faces, ABC, it didnt rain at all.
August: plaid, stay positive, school starting, lots of studying, days at home, wet hair, not much happened.
September: the scene aesthetic, ERIC!, ANDREW!, it's your birthday, happy birthday!, Stephen Jerzak, 15th birthday, Kayla Kendall, 1AM swimming, cheeseburger cupcakes, hammock photos, sleeping in, more school.
October: bleached hair, purple hair, scene hair, big brother, flowers, gates, Aunt Jane, funny faces, silly dances, tons of new hair, fall retreat, rain rain rain, zip line, pumpkins, halloween.
November: bangs, plaid, homeworkhomeworkhomework, sleeping in, seeing no friends, shopping a lot, buying a dress, toms shoes, happy thanksgiving!, pigging out, pumpkin pie, chess pie, lacking so much motivation.
December: shopping, girls retreat, such pretty snow, breakdowns, fire, three Jessica's, signs, HA!, mid-terms, not failing, no heat, freezing weather, christmas shopping.

Tuesday, December 08, 2009


I want to float away..

Bad news comes, don't you worry even when it lands. Good news will work its way to all them plans.
We both got fired on exactly the same day. Well, we'll float on, good news is on the way.
And we'll all float on, okay.