Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Hello breakdown.

1. It's all setting in. I refuse to believe that this is happening.
2. No one cares.
3. We are no longer considered friends. I miss you so much.
4. Cant you tell that Im begging for you to realize how lost I am?
5. All of the light is gone. It's all complete darkness now.
6. They say once you reach rock bottom that there isnt anywhere to go except up. I think Im underground, and still falling.

Monday, September 21, 2009


You don't have to speak because I can hear your heartbeat fluttering like butterflies searching for a drink. You don't have to cover up how you feel when you're in love. I always know I'm not enough to even make you think. Please slow down girl. We're moving way too fast for their world. We've gotta make this last. I know it hurts to feel so all alone. I'm by myself, more than you could know.

That is probably the most depressing song I have heard in my entire life, and it completely reminds me of you. There will be a day when you are no longer on my mind every single second of everyday. I will not worry about what you are doing, or what would be happening if you were at my house right that second with me. But until that day I would just like you to know that you really do mean a whole lot to me, and every second that we talked were some of the greatest times I have had with a friend in a long time. I wish we could go back, and I wish we could just figure out where it all went wrong in the first place.

Sunday, September 20, 2009

Falling apart

// I just realized that I have such great friends who generally care about my well-being and what is going on in my life.

I am so tired of pretending to be okay.

Friday, September 18, 2009

Are you okay?

Oh, yeah, Im fine. I just need some sleep.
Yeah, I guess so.
Yeah, everything is fine.
Im okay.
Yes. Dont worry about it.

These are all lies.
I will never be okay and everything will never be fine.

Friday, September 11, 2009


I hate feeling like this.

You really are all I want right now, but you will never know.